About my feeling now

I don't know how to describe my feeling now, happy? sad? helpless? However, I am not sure about my ture feeling. And I just have been thinking of a word, "We did not harm others, why others still cannot give us a break?" Everyday I switched the tv on and watched the news, U.S. economic weakness, Greece crisis and the EU fears crisis...then compared with our problems, I found it is easier to handle. But how? It is an important question. Even though they do not use force to threaten us, but they are unwilling to let us go. Last night there was a gril from there to ask me if they had strong economic and the quality of people equals Western, will Taiwan people like to be a part of them?
I wanted to ask her what should be considered rich from you. Now you have the half funding from us, but we haven't bankrupt because we had given that half funding. Whatever you thought how rich you do, you still can find the beggers and any crime rate in there. But we did 2 times for no beggers, no robbers and no thiefs here. In another way, if Taiwan people are willing to buy the land with money, and the money use for improving your poor's life, how about the deal? We give you money to help your real poor not for corrupt officials, and you let us go?

The above just are my nagging and a fantastic idea. I knew it could not be, therefore all I can do is to do another trades.
World Expo recently held there, and the theme song of the Taiwan Pavilion is "The heartbeat of Taiwan." When I saw the opening statement reads: "Make a wish!", I felt helpless. And I read the lyric for "Listen with all your heart to the Heartbeat of Taiwan", I just felt our heart almost stop beating with your threaten.